Moving West Moving East

With an abrupt change of plans, we soon discovered that God was opening up other doors for us.  The first one came in the form of my husband's job.  While we were quite happy with his job at Bethel University, he was offered a job at Crown College on the other side of the Twin Cities.  It was a great opportunity for Mike and we prayed over it for several months.  Finally, we knew that God was opening this new door for us and we moved our family to the western city of Minnetrista, MN.  With three small children, it was a delightful place to be raising a family.  We made fantastic friends and were blessed with the very best neighbors one could expect.  Our kids spent evenings and weekends running through the neighborhood with their friends and we loved having fires at our fire pit.  Writing this now makes me extremely homesick for these days.  It is unfortunate that sometimes blessings we have are lost in the moment but realized so much greater after they are gone.

  In 2015, we made our second move.  This time, east, to Mechanicsburg, Pennsylvania.  This move comes with risk.  But, I have so much faith in my husband and our God that together, we decided this was worth it. There are times when I feel insecure and lonely, but I still know that God has a plan for us in all of this.  One of the first things I did when I learned we were moving here was apply for my PA teachers license.  After a LOT of paperwork and time and money spent on this process, I have completely transfered my credentials to my new place of residence.  I applied for a few positions last summer with the mindset that I would let God direct my path.  I did interview, but did not receive a job offer with the Cumberland Valley School District where our kids attend school.  I am now a day to day substitute teacher, able to choose my own schedule and on many days bring the girls to and from school with me.  

One might ask why I would want this situation to change...but I still feel a gaping whole in my heart. I feel as if I am not within the will of God.  Like I am not doing what I am called to be doing.  So, I struggle and wrestle with what that thing is.   I don't particularly care to substitute teach, but I don't HATE it either.  I am looking for a place that fits.  Is it my home?  It might be.  I might be trying to fill a space that isn't even empty.  All I know is that it has been a difficult season emotionally for me.  I am searching. The worst part is, I don't know exactly what I am searching for.

After losing my mother three years ago, I am keenly aware of the gift life is.  I don't want to waste it.  I want to use it for His Glory.  

My prayer each day is that He will lead me to His purpose and the He will use me for His Glory.

Amen.